If I die today, I would be sad.  I have done so many things that I do not want to talk about with God.

I want to give the father something to make him proud but am such a failure.  Perhaps you can help me do something good, something noble, something to make life better for someone who has nothing to live for.

Perhaps.

Perhaps going home to be with the Father would be better than another day of mistakes.

For me to live is Christ and to die is gain.